Stuck

I haven't updated this thing in a while so I figured I would try to put something together. I really don't know what to say or where to start. The last month has been all over the place for me. I feel like I'm stuck in a lot of ways. If I'm being 100% honest, I've really just wanted to get the hell out of here. I want to leave Charleston, move to NYC, and start all over. New life, new friends, new school, new job. New everything. It's not that life here is bad... I don't really know what it is. I just have this urge to leave. I feel like I don't "fit" anywhere anymore. I've prayed about it, but haven't gotten any clear direction on what to do yet. It's frustrating because it's like I'm tied down here and couldn't leave even if I wanted to. I have a one-year lease on my apartment, classes I've already paid for, a mom who would cry for days if I moved, etc. I just feel stuck. I need something new.

I know that God knows what I need. He knows even more about what I need than I do. Through this season of my life, I have no other option than to trust that God has a plan for me and that it's all going to work out... even though I don't see it and don't believe it at times. His plan is greater, his ways are higher.

I've found a lot of comfort in this song the past week...




Jesus, the most beautiful name of all names
Jesus, the only name that brings healing and strength

When I speak Your name, mountains move, chains are loosed
When I speak Your name, darkness flees, it has no hold on me

Jesus, the most beautiful name that I know
You're the exalted One
Jesus, You have the power alone
You lift the lonely ones, Jesus

Jesus, the most wonderful name of all names
Jesus, the only name that brings freedom and hope

When I speak Your name, mountains move, chains are loosed
When I speak Your name, darkness flees, it has no hold on me

Jesus, the most beautiful name that I know
You're the exalted One
Jesus, You have the power alone
You lift the lonely ones, Jesus

Be exalted, be exalted, be exalted higher and higher